Hello World

I have been caught up in this crazy life for the past year, trying to do everything will definitely make you lose your mind (wife, Mom, Career, Family, Friends). I needed a bit of direction to keep me from losing my mind. I decided to do something I hadn’t done in 15 years go see a psychic! So on Monday me and a friend of mine from work went to a great psychic in Ann Arbor, I felt like she new me and I told her absolutely nothing other than my name. Wow did she summarize where I am in life right now. I’ve explained it to Mike a few times as coming out of a huge dust cloud. The first few years of being a parent keeps you busy 24/7.
There’s a song that captures the basic feelings and direction of my life right now, it’s called Hello World by Lady Antebelum, a few of the lyrics are: Traffic crawls, cell phone calls. Talk radio screams at me Through my tinted window I see A little girl, rust red minivan She's got chocolate on her face Got little hands, And she waves at me Yeah, She smiles at me. Hello World How you been? Good to see you, my old friend Sometimes I feel, cold as steel Broken like I'm never gonna heal I see a light, a little hope In a little girl Hello world.

The song summarizes where I’ve been. Life ups and downs has pushed me to be self centered and focused on my career. I never wanted to be any of these things, at the end of the day what really matters is my family and friends. I am so lucky and have what most people want in life, a husband that loves me and two beautiful kids. The past year has forced me to focus on my career and me. It’s a tremendous responsibility to be the sole income provider for a family of four. So I failed to focus on my spouse, it was a hard year with loosing his job and a major depression. However, after a good conversation with a stranger my once caotic life seems to be simple and clear, what really matters most in life is my family. It sounds so silly that I lost sight of this. I am blessed to have a great job and I work with a great group of people however … Money isn’t everything. I can always find a job I am good at what I do. She said “you have two paths to choose from right now– family /Career. She said, “your job Is just too big for you right now”. You love your job but you travel is too much for your young family right now”. This is so true, I love the job and travel but it’s a lot to leave. The travel season is over, phew went to Nashville twice within one month. This is such a small amount of travel compared to most of those that I work with. Wow what great experiences I have had in my adventures in traveling, I have learned so much and seen amazing things. I do love seeing the world it just takes me away from the kids and it’s just not the right time now. The psychic said. “This job could take you to far places; however your husband does not like you to travel.“ Its really is tough on him as he works and has to take care of the kids on his own. I don’t know why a stranger’s word made things so clear.

It’s easy to get caught up in life/career and sometimes forget why your here. I truly love walking through thru my front door and being home with my husband, little girl, and little boy. It sounds great to be a stay at home Mom, but I wonder if I could do it and be satisfied???

The psychic described him perfectly in many ways. She said “He should own his own business, because he’s good at telling people what to do (no really). He should follow in his family’s footsteps and run his own business because it’s what he's good at”. I am going to try and convince him that we should start a business together. I said to him the other night, “let’s do something together that we both love.” You could fish and we could create an educational website/blog and make millions doing what we love. Someday we’ll do it.

I am so lucky to have experienced all the things I have over the past year, my career has taken me so many places, and I wish I could take my family with me. I am happy with what I have and am so happy to have been awakened by a stranger to remind me why I'm here to take care of my family. I must believe in myself and find peace with the place I am at in life. I am back to loving life and enjoying the little things all around me! Yeah.